It's killing,

Didn't I decide everything already? Why, am that weak? Just some small little things, it makes me waver. I shall do that, I will try, am trying. But I realise, I never, I didn't. It's just words of bullshit. So what if I say? So what? Are things gonna change? Nah, it's not! Things will still be the same, the pain will still be there. I decided, to accept everything that has happen, move on! This is the best for me, I don't need all that in life. All this while, I ain't happy. Till now, all the thinking goes on, am suffering! Sighhhhh, why am I thinking so much? When will it actually end? ):

Everything is killing, sighhhh!