像胸口刺青 是永远的记号

Only today, I learn something (:
It wasn't the heart that matter, it was the dressing that matter (:
It was about saving money, & not that heart.

I thought I could, but it show pretty obvious, I can't.
Why is it that, I felt so unhappy when I saw that?
Was it the ending? Maybe after all I had said, I had cause the ending myself.
I thought, it will be better, but I guess, it got worse.

That's the trick. & you fall for it.
It cause heartache, but I think, it's worth it.
Bye.

I had those feelings, afraid or what?
Maybe all this gonna happen. Idontknow.
It seems to be over, is this the outcome of everything?
Maybe it is.
The heart break, The scar will never be gone.

Why is it that, people can't understand how someone feel?
Can't you put yourself in his/her situation?
What you said, hurts him/her?
Yeah, maybe, I was wrong in the first place.
You were someone like this.
I didn't know that.
How bastard can you be? That's my opinion.
Yes, it was long ago.
But maybe, it was for me to reflect too.
You will never remember this, because you remember nothing.
Oh crap.

Don't say things when you dont mean it.
Noobie shit! >:

Why am I having such feelings?
Everything seems so different already.
Maybe because, now, its not only me, but you too.
Maybe, its time to see clearly, understand more.
But, it's so different already. Hais.
Everything is changing.
I thought, it last.
But maybe, that's not the case.
Oh well, nevermind.

Why is it that, it hurts so much?
When I thought, it was oh so true, it seems to turn out as lies.
You dont know, how it killed me inside, when I saw that.
I was totally speechless.
But maybe, that's your choice, it's okay, I'll respect it.
Even if it hurts a lot.
Maybe, I didn't make the effort at all.
Maybe, it will be better for you.
You will have freedom,
You will have money to eat,
You will not be unhappy,
You will not be thinking so much,
You will not be wasting time,
You will be much much happier.
How nice will it be, if everything didn't change.
Fairytales doesn't exist.
Wakeup. shihua!
Face the reality.
It was just some lies, to make you believe.
But end up, when u believe, everything turn out as lies.
& it hurt more. How nice man!
Ty for making me stronger, to go through all this alone.

It pains me to say such stuff.
But I just dont want you to be unhappy anymore.
Ha, just treat it that im heartless.
I dont mind.

Was it a wrong choice? Why do I have such feelings?
I can't get back, its not so easy :(
Maybe u rgret, maybe it was a wrong start.
Who understand? I thought about it since the day I saw the fb comments.
Are u really happy? I doubt so.
I guess, u are not .
Maybe, Im really not suitable for you. I really don't.

Yesterday, I thought about it, maybe I dont have much time.
What can I do ?
Even outsiders, CARE MORE THAN ME!
What am I doing?! Why am I not caring that much?
Why is this happening?! :(
Will this really happen?
What if, it does?
Maybe, its time, I stop wasting time, & do the things I should do.
Hais.