This is killing , & I will never be able to solve it , to heal the pain .
I was the one who cause all this , all this fucking shit .
I don't know what to do , I thought , I would feel happier going out , but I was wrong .
Seriously , why is it that , everytime , we always must be like this ?
The first time , the second time , even the third time .
I really don't understand , & everytime , it was me . How useless can I be man .
I want you to be happy , but yet , am doing the opposite .
Yesterday , the believing of it came back , I was happy .
But , I cause us to be unhappy again .
Actions , leads to regret . Which nothing can help already .
I'm a liar , always has been , forever a liar .
Why can't I fucking change ?
Why can't I fucking spare a thought for someone I really love ?
Why can't I fucking understand how much it hurts ?
Why can't I fucking just shut the fuck up ?
The pain , the hurts , everything , I couldn't solve it . I COULDN'T , what am I suppose to do ?
I'm sorry , that's all I could say . Because am that useless , that I don't know what to say , other than a sorry .