REVENGE!

I will never understand, I WILL NEVER EVER!

WTFUCK! My fault to be scare of dogs?
Nabei! Do you think i want to be scare of dogs?
I don't want too right? -'-
Who wants? So what if he won't bite?
So what? I'm still scare. What can i do?
Fml!

Sometimes, keeping inside is better than saying out.
I always thought, it will be better, but now, it prove that, it will never be.
I still don't know the best way, maybe i'll never know.
Promise are meant to be broken.
I once thought, you said it when you are angry, but somehow, it came true.
I don't know why, when i knew it, i got a feeling. I don't know how to say it, but nvm.
WHY?!
My fault, yeah. Blame it on me.
I got nothing more to say.
I was right in the first place.
Keeping inside is much better.
I guess, it's still okay.
At least, it's just me feeling unhappy.

Not all scars shows. Not all wound heals.
Sometimes you can't see, the pain someone feels.

It's all keeping inside. Why? ):

Everything seems so weird.
Everything just looks like a dream.
I've just woke up from the dream.
& realise, it's all a dream.
I don't know how to describe/say.
Somehow, it's weird.
I read the chat log, the twist & turn words.
Which to believe?
What can i do? In order to run away from all this?


It seems to be under control, i don't like.


& don't threatened me! If you think that gonna work,
let me tell you, it doesn't!
I don't like to be threatened!
I don't like to be shouted!
In fact, i HATE it!


Somehow, it doesn't had an impact on me already.
Why? Maybe because of what she once said.
Even if it does, it's all too late to say.

Are you always using all these tricks?
It doesn't make me feel like it. Seriously.

I'M NOT GOING ANYWHERE DURING CHRISTMAS!
HAPPY BO? -'-
Nabeichaocheebye!
Fuckcare!

Somehow, i feel that, it's indirectly saying, it's my fault.
Nevermind.
Why is it that, you're just trying to make yourself feel better?
WHAT ABOUT ME?
Did you think about me?
Hais, forget it.
It's my fault! MINE!
What can i do? What can i say?
Yes, i did the same old thing.
WHO UNDERSTAND HOW I FEEL NOW?

Gab, thanks a lot!
Thanks for helping me buy those things.
& sorry aye.
I just went down to take & ask you to leave.
I just wana be alone. Sorry. ):
Really thanks a lot! & thanks for the last few sticks. & the few cans.
Tyvm! I will cheerup. Thanks! :D



You will never understand, how much those words hurts.

Some words, doesn't have to be said.
):):):):):

Gabriel,Dbz! ;
Sorry aye! Just now couldn't pei you for long.
But i'm good hor! I go all the way to punggol end to find you, idiotzxc!
Cheerup lah! Things might not be that worse aye!
Don't worry! :D
Remember, don't worry be happy! xD
I believe, you won't be such kind in her heart! Smile (:
We chat a lot just now, & thanks for accompanying me when i'm unhappy too aye, just like ytd! :D
Haha, a msg/call from me, you will just rush down to punggol end to find me.
Thanks a lot!
But today, i really see the emo side of you. Haha!
Though last time, you ask me to punggol end when you were unhappy, you won't be that unhappy.
SmileSmile! We're sister! HAHAHAHA! Lmao!

Saying about the group, i won't be back there.
I know, the days we slack, the days we ton from night to morning.
It's fun, full of all our laughter.
But things are no longer the same.
I guess, the group won't be a whole anymore.
You yourself know it.
That's all bah! Cheerup aye!
Anything give me a call/sms, i will just go down (:
Just like what you always did aye.

Remember by heart! Shihua is SELFISH!
Shihua will never ever think for others!
Get it?
Friends, sisters, nice one uh!

I don't know why.
It seems that, the two sentences i said to cherie, i don't wana type here again.
Why? Shihua will never ever learn to think for others!
I don't like such remarks!
Why is it that, somehow, in your eyes, im such a kind?
Why do you have to say till like that?
Do you know how i feel?

Ps / this two doesn't link.

I got a lot to post, or rather, it should be a long post.
But somehow, it didn't.
I'm lazy to post.
Or rather, posting out doesn't help either.
Bye!

I don't know why, i'm having such feelings.
I need somebody to talk to , but how to say it ?
I'm feeling a difference, are you?
Yes, & again, my heart doesn't tally with my words. Yes, AGAIN!
Because i don't know how to say, what my heart wants.
Whbkl! But nobody understands after all.
Sometimes, i hope you will ask ,
but sometimes , i rather , you don't ask anything .
Complicated ? Yes , i don't understand either .
Weisheme ? Do you rmb ? Yes , it's still in my heart .
Wzdzdhbkl!
Hais !

I don't know. I don't know.
I couldn't do it, seriously.
Thanks nigel for your words :)

Maybe all these words shouldn't have been said by me.
Keeping quiet might be the best way afterall.

We drifted during this holidays , you should know it .
We aren't that close . For years , we were always so close .
But not this year . To ask you for help , it was so difficult already .
Unlike the past . When you ask me for help , did i say no ?
Unless i really can't . Maybe , what you say is true after all .

Heyzxc!
Seriously , pissed ! Think about what you say .
So what ? Got money big uh ?
Even if i wana say it's fake just now , you also lanlan right ? nb __
Don't make me shout at you in front of so many people lah .
You think i don't dare ? Come try only lah .
After knowing so much , i seriously , couldn't forgive & forget .
If you say till so can , please lah hor , you don't have to take money from mum .
We can live better off without you lah hor !
Unfilial or whatever shit , just say . I won't care anymore !

Nigel ` Dearest Di
What happen aye ? O:
Cheerup :D No matter what happen , i will be there for you aye !
Takecare ! :D