This post , shall not be that emo already .
Good memories , bad memories , everything still stays the same .
Live with it , keep the good , & erase the bad .
That's what I'm trying to do :D
Human all make mistakes , but learn from it , change for the better .
Even if , thinking back , it do hurts , we're still left with no choice .
I'm very bored , so I decided to come & post .
TNGz!
We used to be together for months , but things didn't work out .
But this time round , it just feels so different .
No matter how foolish you think I am , I don't care .
I just hope , this keeps going .
Thanks for tolerating all my nonsense , uhhuh . Those nanananan , whatever :/
Just , don't think too much .
After the chat yesterday , I just feels better .
& IM NOW WAITING FOR YOU TO WAKE UP! :@
I ain't those who know how to express myself well, or how to talk until damn well.
I only know how talk nonsense , crap a lot .
Kay , i shall continue waiting for you to wake up .
No matter how much I joke , I still do uh . :D
Friend , I guess it's better we stay like this , am sorry to treat you with all those cold replies .
But , let's just stay this way . I don't wanna have much contact with you .
I know , you will be seeing this . I hope you stay happy like how you used to .
Anything happen , you still can find me , alright ?
If that's it , don't contact me that much . Thankyou . All the best !
Don't give up on your studies , think about your future .
I know , all this hurts . I've feel it before , but am sorry .
Maybe am a bitch , but I will be more than a bitch , if i don't say it out .
Thanks for being there last time , thanks for everything . Goodbye , friend .
Sunday, October 17, 2010
Friday, October 8, 2010
If only , letting go is so easy . How nice would things be ?
Everyday , I said I wanna move on , I can do it , but I failed to do so . I tried doing all kinds of rubbish , but none actually helps . I said , I'm moving on , but I didn't . I said , I won't be so unahppy already , but am still unhappy . Why am I always thinking all this ? When I fucking know it's all impossible already . I decided everything , but why can't I just follow the plan ! Maybe , it's time I step out of this , I shouldn't do all this , I shouldn't already . Shihua , you once hate such people . Now , you shouldn't be one of them . Let's just don't care , don't bother . I'm sorry , I know i'm wrong for this one month . I reflect , & i think , I'm wrong . I shall just believe in , what's yours , will be yours . No point forcing , let's not think so much already .
Tears ah tears , you drop enough already . It's time to stop .
Everyday , I said I wanna move on , I can do it , but I failed to do so . I tried doing all kinds of rubbish , but none actually helps . I said , I'm moving on , but I didn't . I said , I won't be so unahppy already , but am still unhappy . Why am I always thinking all this ? When I fucking know it's all impossible already . I decided everything , but why can't I just follow the plan ! Maybe , it's time I step out of this , I shouldn't do all this , I shouldn't already . Shihua , you once hate such people . Now , you shouldn't be one of them . Let's just don't care , don't bother . I'm sorry , I know i'm wrong for this one month . I reflect , & i think , I'm wrong . I shall just believe in , what's yours , will be yours . No point forcing , let's not think so much already .
Tears ah tears , you drop enough already . It's time to stop .
I shouldn't have went , it makes me more confuse ):
Should I feel happy or confuse ? I'm feeling so confuse about everything . Even if one day , there's a chance , will I still dare to trust everything ? After being killed once already ? I'm afraid , real afraid of all these . What if , history repeats ? Once pain , twice stabbed , am I still able to take everything ? Maybe , I've to thanks you , yes , it wasn't a great feeling . Because it makes me stronger . It makes me know , in a relationship , it isn't just happiness all the way . In times to come , you will get killed , & the world just tumble down . But it's alright , treat it as a lesson learnt . Yes , this is too painful to treat it as a lesson , But I got no choice . I got to tell myself , this is the fact , it's happening right now , everything is gone . Learn to accept , I've already got the feeling of being killed , what's more things I couldn't accept ? Indeed , some things is hard , but learn it the hard way . Pay a high price , maybe , things will be better in future . At least , I'm stronger .
Today marks the day of you leaving me , for one month already . In times to come , I hope the pain isn't there anymore . ): This month is the 10th month I've love you . Sigh , accept it shihua ! Be happy , he's once yours . Be happy , he's once your true love .
I did it , I didn't prompt already . Late replies , no replies , it's alright . I know my status now , I couldn't ask for more . I know clearly where I stand , I should have left , far far away . I realise , I don't treat you very well anyway , she will be a better girl , I guess . All the best ! Shihua sincerely bless you .
Yes , I'm a bitch , whatever you all say eh . If I didn't tell him , & let him feel the hurt for a longer time , by then , I will be more than a bitch ! Blame me now ? Please , go & ask him , how many times have I say , IMPOSSIBLE ! So now , my fault ? Uhhuh , I don't give a damn .
& please , stop threatening , if you want to die , go ahead . Don't slit like a xmm , go & jump down . You will die faster . I will give you more money on your funeral ! -'- Don't force me to say everything eh , I know , you're hurt . But sorry , I don't feel good too , nabuey .
Should I feel happy or confuse ? I'm feeling so confuse about everything . Even if one day , there's a chance , will I still dare to trust everything ? After being killed once already ? I'm afraid , real afraid of all these . What if , history repeats ? Once pain , twice stabbed , am I still able to take everything ? Maybe , I've to thanks you , yes , it wasn't a great feeling . Because it makes me stronger . It makes me know , in a relationship , it isn't just happiness all the way . In times to come , you will get killed , & the world just tumble down . But it's alright , treat it as a lesson learnt . Yes , this is too painful to treat it as a lesson , But I got no choice . I got to tell myself , this is the fact , it's happening right now , everything is gone . Learn to accept , I've already got the feeling of being killed , what's more things I couldn't accept ? Indeed , some things is hard , but learn it the hard way . Pay a high price , maybe , things will be better in future . At least , I'm stronger .
Today marks the day of you leaving me , for one month already . In times to come , I hope the pain isn't there anymore . ): This month is the 10th month I've love you . Sigh , accept it shihua ! Be happy , he's once yours . Be happy , he's once your true love .
I did it , I didn't prompt already . Late replies , no replies , it's alright . I know my status now , I couldn't ask for more . I know clearly where I stand , I should have left , far far away . I realise , I don't treat you very well anyway , she will be a better girl , I guess . All the best ! Shihua sincerely bless you .
Yes , I'm a bitch , whatever you all say eh . If I didn't tell him , & let him feel the hurt for a longer time , by then , I will be more than a bitch ! Blame me now ? Please , go & ask him , how many times have I say , IMPOSSIBLE ! So now , my fault ? Uhhuh , I don't give a damn .
& please , stop threatening , if you want to die , go ahead . Don't slit like a xmm , go & jump down . You will die faster . I will give you more money on your funeral ! -'- Don't force me to say everything eh , I know , you're hurt . But sorry , I don't feel good too , nabuey .
Wednesday, October 6, 2010
Nothing much changes ..
There was once , when a girl knows nothing about love . She doesn't believe in love , thinking there's no such things . But she met a boy , a boy who make her know , what's love . But now , it's gone, that guy left . This girl was once happy , but now , her life seems to be in a mess . She doesn't feels happy . Her prelims results was crap , but who can she blame ? Nobody , she fall into something call love , who make her who she is today. Who give up in her prelims , she always thought , love was something beautiful months ago . Is the thinking still the same ? She mess up her life , & still trying to accept all the facts that is happening . It's not easy , but she's trying real hard . But nothing helps . After trying the old way , her sleepless night was gone . But , is this the right way ? What is love ? It can totally mess your life , it can totally ruin you !
It takes a hard time to trust all over again . During the first few months , things was sweet . The girl knew what was love after meeting this particular guy , but it causes pain . She took 4 months to believe again , but was it a mistake to believe ? The 2nd time , she didn't get twice the pain . Instead , she was stabbed ! Stabbed right into the heart , she was completely lost . Her life turns into a mess , she broke the promises she made to someone . Everything seems to go haywire . But she was glad , it was the holiday period , if not , she gonna miss quite a number of days from school . But things didn't go well , she give up her prelims , she studied nothing , she just went on , to try her luck . Till today , things still didn't go well , why is it so ? She don't know . All she hope for , was to rewind the time , & know nothing about love . Sighhh ,
She once promise someone 3 things , but she broke all the promises after 9/9/10 . Yes , all 3 promises , that someone was disappointed , that girl knew it . But time cannot rewind , apologizing doesn't make everything right . All that girl can say is , am sorry .
Don't ever trust me , my promise are all meant to be broken .
So much to say , so much to say , sighhh .
Ahbeast told me , accept everything , accept all the facts , no point lying to myself already . Am trying , really trying . Thanks ahbeast .
There was once , when a girl knows nothing about love . She doesn't believe in love , thinking there's no such things . But she met a boy , a boy who make her know , what's love . But now , it's gone, that guy left . This girl was once happy , but now , her life seems to be in a mess . She doesn't feels happy . Her prelims results was crap , but who can she blame ? Nobody , she fall into something call love , who make her who she is today. Who give up in her prelims , she always thought , love was something beautiful months ago . Is the thinking still the same ? She mess up her life , & still trying to accept all the facts that is happening . It's not easy , but she's trying real hard . But nothing helps . After trying the old way , her sleepless night was gone . But , is this the right way ? What is love ? It can totally mess your life , it can totally ruin you !
It takes a hard time to trust all over again . During the first few months , things was sweet . The girl knew what was love after meeting this particular guy , but it causes pain . She took 4 months to believe again , but was it a mistake to believe ? The 2nd time , she didn't get twice the pain . Instead , she was stabbed ! Stabbed right into the heart , she was completely lost . Her life turns into a mess , she broke the promises she made to someone . Everything seems to go haywire . But she was glad , it was the holiday period , if not , she gonna miss quite a number of days from school . But things didn't go well , she give up her prelims , she studied nothing , she just went on , to try her luck . Till today , things still didn't go well , why is it so ? She don't know . All she hope for , was to rewind the time , & know nothing about love . Sighhh ,
She once promise someone 3 things , but she broke all the promises after 9/9/10 . Yes , all 3 promises , that someone was disappointed , that girl knew it . But time cannot rewind , apologizing doesn't make everything right . All that girl can say is , am sorry .
Don't ever trust me , my promise are all meant to be broken .
So much to say , so much to say , sighhh .
Ahbeast told me , accept everything , accept all the facts , no point lying to myself already . Am trying , really trying . Thanks ahbeast .
Sunday, October 3, 2010
It's killing,
Didn't I decide everything already? Why, am that weak? Just some small little things, it makes me waver. I shall do that, I will try, am trying. But I realise, I never, I didn't. It's just words of bullshit. So what if I say? So what? Are things gonna change? Nah, it's not! Things will still be the same, the pain will still be there. I decided, to accept everything that has happen, move on! This is the best for me, I don't need all that in life. All this while, I ain't happy. Till now, all the thinking goes on, am suffering! Sighhhhh, why am I thinking so much? When will it actually end? ):
Everything is killing, sighhhh!
Didn't I decide everything already? Why, am that weak? Just some small little things, it makes me waver. I shall do that, I will try, am trying. But I realise, I never, I didn't. It's just words of bullshit. So what if I say? So what? Are things gonna change? Nah, it's not! Things will still be the same, the pain will still be there. I decided, to accept everything that has happen, move on! This is the best for me, I don't need all that in life. All this while, I ain't happy. Till now, all the thinking goes on, am suffering! Sighhhhh, why am I thinking so much? When will it actually end? ):
Everything is killing, sighhhh!
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